Timing is everything.....

I had originally filed for divorce almost two years ago but then never sent the paperwork thru, thinking things were going to change. In reality, I knew they wouldn't. I just wasn't ready yet for that move. The following months were filled with me telling everyone I was going to do it. In fact, I was, I was moving stuff out and preparing. I was just never ready for the big move.

That being said, fast forward to last week. I was at the local watering hole were everyone knows my name and a friend of mine came up to me and said, hey I got an email from ....lets call him military boy or MB for short.

With all that was going on, I forgot about my crush on MB, my former favorite bartender. For months, well possibly years I flirted with this guy. We met up on occasion, went out for lunch, gave me rides back to my car and by far gave the best hugs. He was in the middle of his divorce, I hadn't started mine. I made nice with his soon to be ex, just in case.

With all the flirting, things never happened with MB.

So back to my friend telling me that he heard from MB and MB wanted to tell everyone who mattered that he says hi.

Two days later, I was emailing MB. Giving him congrats on his new baby and to tell him I was sorry for my poor flirting skills.

The return email said something to the effect he was trying to get his personal life straightened out and didn't want to end up in my business. I took that as saying -- yeah he would have dated me. FUCK.

I ended up telling my mother tonight that we've exchanged some emails. Her reply to this was...he would have been the ultimate son in law. I'm thinking. I know. I'm crushed.

Maybe his new wife won't be able to handle him fighting for our freedom and divorce him and then he can realize that the third time is a charm, with me.