Two cards paid off and a DVD player....

I'm starting my goal early. This Christmas Eve finds me at home (snowed in, again) paying bills and reaching for my goal. I'm set to have another two cards paid off by the end of January -- then I'll hit the heavy hitters. Again, stuff I should have been doing all along just never did it--until now.

My DVD player came. Another simple sign of independence. Merry Christmas to me.

I'm using up all my gift cards so the next items on the list are my ladder bookcase and a shredder.

Goals for January.

I had on my sticky note to call my lawyer this week but realized I really didn't want to ruin what Christmas I might have.

What a difference a year makes. Last year, I remember being at "home" desperately thinking I wish I could wake up at my parents on Christmas morning -- that wish came true. Tomorrow morning, I will wake up here. Then I remember taking the tree down last year and separating all the ornaments into mine and his grandmothers. When I moved out, I took all the Christmas stuff. I left behind a small bag of his grandmothers ornaments.

I've started to toss pictures of the both of us. Last weekend, I was snowed in too. I started to go thru things and tore up pics of us. No tears...just don't need them and certainly don't want them.

Update on the Godfather.....Haven't seen him since well...I don't know when. But hey, I did have a friend give me a message from him to me...blah blah blah...I'm not too concerned about it. However, every time the dogs bark...I can't help but look to see if the truck is in the driveway...no hope...no luck yet.

Two years ago today, I picked up the drummer boy from the airport. A life changing moment -- literally. He's been more of a boyfriend than the Godfather has been.

Ooops

mother nature finally worked in my favor and has trapped me at home. That being said and my mother on my ass....I'm working on cleaning out the spare bedroom. And finally, tossing the past.

I feel sad that I'm not renewing my redneck superbowl tickets to a southeastern destination next year. I didn't go this year and I probably won't go back for quite sometime. Its like that part of my past is fading away. Its me but not me now. If that makes sense.

So in cleaning out the spare bedroom and keeping in mind that who knows what kind of space I'll have in the future.....I found a bag of clothes I brought over the first time I decided I was moving/filing for divorce. Which would be two years ago. In that bag, I found jeans. I was kinda shocked because I thought I had all my jeans until I looked at the size. It seems that in a fit of rage that night I packed up a stack of the ex's jeans...oops...you can now find them on craigslist...I'm going to see if I can make up some money of the prick.

I'm a shitty wrapper...

That was one of the things the ex used to do for me. I don't see the point of wrapping things only to tear the paper off in a whirlwind of excitement. I didn't put name tags on my stuff but you will sure shit know which ones I wrapped.

I made some purchases this week for my new place. I finally decided on a DVD player and that will be here by the start of next week. This way, I can hide in my room when there is nothing on and catch up on my movies. Last night, I bought the ottoman from Target. Its nice. I put all my sandals in it so far. So that is two things done.

The bookcase and a shredder are next on my list. Again, sticking with my theory the more I get now..the less rushed I will be later.

Last night while I was out, I had a major moment of weakness. I snuck over to the outlet mall and purchased three Coach purses. Then I vowed to the Godfather that I will not buy any after January. What I get this month is done. January is when I kick it in full gear. That means working extra shifts and getting my bills paid off. I've spent the last five months doing and buying what I want with no worries. My playtime is over.

Speaking of getting my head in the game, that also goes for this damn diet I'm supposed to be on. Starting in January, I'll be bringing lunch 2-3x a week and hitting the gym the same. I will also be budgeting my money. That being said, December is the last of my party, shopping days.

I will still allocate money to get items for my place but none of this wasteful trips to the mall. I also decided that I won't go back to the Coach outlet until I lose 20lbs and or get my Discover and BOA Amex paid off.

I should be able to accomplish this because I start school next month for my other photography class and that will keep me busy.

Its time. For real.

Catching up..

Yours truly took off last week for an east coast destination and had an ok time. Yeah, I actually flew stand by on the way home to get the hell out. It wasn't the destination, it was the company.
As the year is winding down, I look at all the stuff I've done. I've taken at least five trips since I left in July. Awesome. I wonder if he can compete with that.

I called my lawyer and told him I want to settle and settle now. No word from him. That will cause a phone call tomorrow. I've been patient enough.

It was brought to my attention last week that soon to be ex hubby is pursuing my brother's ex girlfriend. Either he got sick of his brother or he's looking for info on me. I always thought those two would have something going on after my brother and I left them together for one day. MMMMM....fine, let her deal with his shit.

No word from the godfather since he came to see me off on thursday with a good bye fuck. Well, I take that back, he called. I let it go to voice mail. He's supposed to stop by tonight so I think its time to have the talk. He told me they were foreclosing on the house. I wonder where he'll go. This should be interesting.

I'm buying a DVD player this week. In fact, I'm researching them now. One more thing done and one more thing for my freedom.