Its been awhile...and I'm sorry about that. Can't say that I've been bored. So let me catch you up. The new year brought many new things one being a boyfriend. Yes, a real boyfriend.
The day after Christmas, I opened my email to find that jackass hadn't switched over his email addys and I was the lucky recipient of his travel plans for March. Seems as if he was going to San Fran. That prompted me to place an Craigslist ad that simply stated Santa Screwed Me. I got four responses...and out of that one...I got a boyfriend.
With that, I kicked the godfather to the curb and focused on a real relationship that contained trust and honesty.
I jumped back into photography and earned respect among the fellow darkroom geeks and my teacher. Between that my 2nd job and building a what I hope is a lasting relationship. I've been busy.
Still not divorced but heard that he's dating. Can't say that it didn't sting. It did. It pisses me off that there is another woman in my house. If we were divorced, fine, but I just want it over. Then he can do whatever the hell he wants and I won't care...but still knowing that you're legally married to the prick and still have his last name...I feel sick. And if its the girl I think it is...well he's already on the path to destruction...because his brother dated her first. Ew, I think I just threw up in my mouth a little.
We've been to court once a month, been before the judge in a pre trial conference hearing...its always something. Somedays, I'm extremely depressed. I start to see bills from my lawyer, I get sicker.
I went to my yearly conference this last week and actually didn't drink. Seriously, I was so looking forward to top shelf vodka but I knew...if I had one too many, I'd be making phone calls. Part of me wants to talk to the ex....the other part wants to purge him from my memory.
I haven't followed thru on any of my new years resolutions. Which, I MUST buckle down now and get going. I just have ADD when it comes to getting stuff done. And with that...I must go...I'll catch up more later...
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