Almost a year....

unreal. We're into July and instead of planning a divorce party, I'm planning the midday move party for the end of the month. So be it, this is what makes me stronger isn't it?
Its hard to believe the events that unfolded to my moving out last year. As it approaches the 4th of July, I keep thinking about where I was a year ago and how it happened so fast. I remember doing this doing that and bam, leaving never to look back. This also means, I haven't set foot in my house in a whole year.

Even though, I've said I've given up wondering why he continues to drag this out and what my house looks like now and how my "plan" of moving somewhere else has all fallen thru, I can't help but do wonder....I feel stupid now for buying everything, the table, mirror, book cases..etc...I thought for sure I'd be in my own place by now. Have I jinxed myself?!

I have tho, given the circumstances, started to pay my shit off. I find myself not buying everything in sight. I actually went shopping with my mom and grandma last weekend and came home empty handed. Only to buy a pair of shoes Monday morning online. I've sucked things up and worked my 2nd job even when I was dead ass tired. Even considering picking up extra hours.

I've even kept up with my workouts. I've given my bod a rest the last two days and the real test is the first 5K, I'm run/walking next Thursday. I have to run my real one on the 18th..I'll think of the douche bag while I am. I just have to remember, I need to look hot when I go to court.

I've also been avoiding my fellow friend. I don't want to hear about the godfather and/or my divorce. We were supposed to go out this afternoon and go shopping. I don't have the energy nor the money. Well I have the money, I just have become jewish.