Can't lie, I'm nervous...

the waiting game is starting to wear on me. Last week, my mind was wandering all over the place. An old friend of mine posted pics up on facebook that brought back memories. The good thing is, I don't look like that anymore but the flip side is...things in that picture triggered memories.

One of them was from the redneck superbowl. When we used to go. The truck was in the pic. Honestly, it was my favorite truck. Luckily, I was only working a half day that day but I had strong urges to phone the ex to see if he wanted me back. I dunno why, he never fought for me. He let me go and never looked back. I have to keep remembering that. Besides, that relationship was too far damaged to ever repair. Can you say trainwreck?

The longer this divorce goes on, the worse it gets.

I spent the half day with amazing boyfriend. We just drove around in his territory and learned some history. The best thing about amazing boyfriend, he's opening my eyes. Stuff I didn't give two shits about in a past lifetime. I'm living and learning now. I guess...it makes a difference when you love someone.

Then on Thursday while en route to my job, my mind wandered again and I almost went back to the old house. I know why this happened. Because on Friday, it was the one year anniversary of the move. That means, one year since I walked thru that door. I haven't seen my house in one year. I can't believe its been a year. I told my mom, that if this goes on and this divorce goes to trial....I would be dating amazing boyfriend one year before I get divorced.

One year.

Speaking of amazing boyfriend. We had a good weekend. At least in my book. I can tell he's coming around. He played guitar for me on Friday, I spent the night Saturday and today we wandered around a flea market in enemy terriorty. I was on guard and secretly praying, I'd see either one of them. However, this morning while in bed. I bought the Manolos. Next is the Tiffany ring.

I'm also keeping on track with my workouts. I must say, I'm looking good.

Tomorrow is my appointment with the lawyer. I have a list and I'm checking it twice. The hard part is just getting thru the day.