I knew when I flipped my calendar over last month, it was a bad sign. The days are getting shorter, I didn't get nearly the amount of things I wanted to do this summer and oh yeah, STILL NOT DIVORCED. Its even a worse sign when two of your friends divorces are done before you and they started after you.
On Sunday night and I took advantage of the roomies being gone so I could print off credit card statements and get some stuff done on my own. The last two weekends have been sheer busy. The bf and I took off last Friday and did a foodie road trip that lasted 2.5 days, 1396 miles thru five states. We had good conversation and I learned more about his ex. The more I learn, the more I can distance myself from her. The more I'm with him, the more I truly adore him.
I heard from my lawyer today and he wants me to get more statements. So I skipped the gym today, came straight home and was on the phone for 90 mins digging up my past. I'm confident I'll get him in the end.
I'm also pretty sure he's got a new car. Only because one, I saw what was a dead ringer of his old car on the used car lot and two all of a sudden my auto insurance went up. When I looked at my renewal policy for my auto insurance, I saw the house was off. Add it all up, just when he thinks he can sneak something in, I'll eventually catch it. Already reported to my lawyer.
I started to clean up and out some of my stuff in boxes tonight and in the garbage went old photos of Christmas past. I hate throwing out pics with my family in them. So some of them will have to stay.
I know its hard erasing the past. I'm getting that. I'm understanding that with the current bf. The difference between him and I was, I was screaming to get out and he was hit head on with his. So the things I want to tell him, I'm holding off because I know and I can feel that he's just not there yet. I just hope this current relationship -- which I really want to work out -- isn't my karma train coming to visit me for all the bad things I've done in the past.
I'm taking some much deserved time off this week. I was supposed to go to a west coast destination but that fell through. So I'm taking the week to get my stuff together and or cleaned out. I want to get some photos shot because next week, I'll be returning to the lab and I can't wait.
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