Wednesday, September 16, 2009

34, fat and trying to get divorced.....

that about sums up my day. This morning I was called back to the doctors office to redo some lab work. My doctor again reminded me that I was fat. No shit, I thought, she was observant. Needless, to say...I came back to my office and searched for another doctor. A quick poll in my office, revealed that this certain doctor has ..shall we say..shitty bedside manner. Don't get me wrong, I've seen doctors with shitty bedside manners and if I was ever on the table and my life depended on it...I'd want that one doctor. But..given the race this doctors is...this is no shock. AND I'm NOT pulling the race card on this one either. It just comes with the territory.

A few weeks ago, certain family members had a run in with my soon to be ex. I guess it went over ok. He didn't say anything, just let his brother do all the talking. Once again, hiding behind something. Although, I'm pretty certain he was shocked that I had a niece. He's probably wondering why I never told him in the end. Oh well, I didn't want to taint the baby's future. Wonder if he ever thought I was there....mmmm...

Divorce status.

I turned over several thousand dollars of credit card debt to my lawyer a week ago. Who promptly called and told me it was "fucking fabulous" and that his lawyer was waiting to "shove it down his throat". Hopefully, this is the end of it.

It better be, because I'm in love.

Yes. I know. Shocker. I'm in love. And I'm gonna tell him this weekend. Well, next Monday he'll know. We haven't exchanged those pleasantries yet. But I figured after eight plus months of dating, two vacations and plenty of sleepovers, its time. I'm still married I know, it pains me to say that. But I think he really needs to know how I feel. And lets be honest here, I've felt it for a real looooonng time. I even told my mother tonight, this one counts.

For once, I'm considerate in a relationship. I'm doing things I've never done before. I'm not keeping score.

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