Over, over

On Monday, October 26th. I found myself in the courtroom surrounded by friends and sizing up his lawyer. Within 10 min, 9 years of marriage was erased from my life. I walked out and thought what next.

I'll admit. It didn't go as planned, didn't go in my favor and I ended up paying out. But what I got in return was a chance to find new love and a second chance.

He never showed. I thought it could have gone either way. I should have expected that after months of hiding behind his lawyer, why start today. I'm sure he's gloating. Thats fine. I can live with that because now, I have that chance to do things my way.

It didn't take me long to get the name change rolling. But I did find that the credit card companies are nicer to you when you say you have a name change due to a marriage as opposed to a divorce.

Since that Monday, I've been organizing my financial situation. Looking for things to buy for my new house and finding it hard to believe I'm single.

Even now. In the still of the night, I can't believe its over. I wonder what he's thinking.