I had to be the one to make contact

On Christmas Eve I kept checking my phone for text messages or emails. I thought for sure I'd hear from drummer boy, after all it was Christmas Eve when it the tide changed.

I found myself at 11PM watching my godson while his parents were out. The ingredients were there and yet again, sitting alone in the living room of my best friends house....I had a moment of weakness.

It was Christmas Eve, I was alone, and the Honeymooners were on....that was all I needed to make the move when I realized there was no email or text. I sent an email that said...where were you three years ago tonight -- Alice.

I knew by my actions, the potential of opening up a can of worms was there. But yet, I felt that I needed to do it. And I did. There was no quick response. It didn't come til Christmas morning when we exchanged two one lined emails. And that was it.