Finding myself in unusual situations

Did I mention Sporto has kids?! Oh yeah. Two. I call it trying out for the role of step mom. But, sometimes I have my doubts.

I met the kids a few weeks after we started dating. Every time he asked me when I wanted to meet them I told him the ball was in his court, when he felt the time was right, then we'd do it.
Then came the news his family was coming in from out of state for a birthday party. So now the time crunch was on. His mission was for me to meet the kids before I met his mom.

Side note. 13 months, I never met Harleys family. 2 months, I meeting Sporto's mom and kids.

I kept looking at the calendar and knew time was running out until the Saturday before, I found myself at the dinner table. Just the four of us. I could only imagine what his daughter was thinking. Considering I was told from everyone she'd be the worst one to deal with. She texted the whole entire time. So I'm thinking she's texting her mom, friends, aliens who knows. All I could picture the texts to be was something like...I'm out with my dad's new gf, boring, wtf and who knows what other abbreviations she used.

Then I found out he told the kids about me as I picked them up.

Dinner was short and sweet and I couldn't wait for them to get picked up so I could grab and adult beverage...a VERY STRONG adult beverage.
It was then when I first started thinking, whoa, this isn't the life for me.

Then I thought, when you start questioning yourself that is when things happen.

Since then, we've had breakfast. One dinner a night has now turned into family nights on Tuesdays. And I took them to the city and even took his daughter to a ballgame on our own. We've taken the kids here and there and I can tell when we're all in the car together, Sporto is loving his life.

I think they like me. He says they love me. I'm not here to take the place of their mom. I think is great that they ask if I'm gonna be at their events. I'm grateful that Sporto and his ex and work it out because of the kids. At one of the events, the ex was there, I grabbed my phone and pretended to be on a work call.

Yes, I know I'll have to deal with her one day. But hey, we're only almost 4 months into this.

However, tonight.

Sporto called and has just told me now that he's running late and wants me to go to the daughter's talent show. Alone. She's expecting you at 630. I have 2 hours to show time. I've already called my backups in. I know the ex is going to be there. I just don't feel comfortable. I know sporto just wants his family together. I can see it, I can tell. I'm not opposed to going, I'm not ready to be friendly yet.

I know that sounds wrong and someday we'll get there. I'm sure. So far so good. I just don't want to rush a good thing to where it turns bad.